Sometimes we can be our worst critic. Our biggest enemy. And that can stop us from doing so many things, like fulfilling God’s purpose in your life. And my advice to any of you ladies who are in that situation is to seek God’s face even when it hurts. Even when you don’t feel like reaching for God’s hand. Having that devotion time is key to keep you rooted in the Lord.
I wanted to bring this up because I remember a very low point in my life when I just berated myself so much and I just did not want to reach out to the Lord anymore. I didn’t have an honest reason why. I just didn’t want to. Maybe part of the reason was because I knew that if I reached out to God I knew that He would change my heart and would revive my spirit. But I was so comfortable with being my worse enemy and berating myself for all my short comings, that I felt worthless. I took things very hard back then and it would always take me awhile to feel better and get back to my usual self.
But thank God for his grace and mercy. Because with the help of the Lord and a good college friend, who took me to bible study with her every week, I became better and started to feel God’s spirit revive me so I could move forward and be used by Him. That devotion time spent with the Lord and His people rooted me deeper in a way that was overwhelming.
So I’m here to say, don’t beat yourself up. Conviction is there to help us know we did something wrong and to not do it again. Don’t let the conviction consume you. Let it help transform you to be better. Be consumed with the Lord’s word and spend time with Him to hear His voice. And His voice only.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight. – Proverbs 3:5-6